I don't want to forget this later on

So I was on the pogo's with my mom playing some solitaire game and I told her that Derek and I are trying to decide what to do for vacation time and we threw around orlando. Derek wants to go to disney world. I said something like, And maybe i can meet Michael Kevin Taylor Ricky ect. Someone in the chat named Derek said were going to Florida? and I said sure, why not. My mom asked how I knew all these men in FL. I said mom their my gays.

The Derek guys says: <---Gay
I say: really, I love the gays
he says: ME TOO!

And I laughed really hard.


My pal Ru turned the big 30 today!



So I say to him Happy Birthday! *hugs* Have a safe trip home!

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

Damn you Daily Purge and Foul Monkeys!

So i am listening to the daily purge this morning and John and Robbie start talking about 2 girls 1 cup. It didn't sound that bad, so I was like, I'm gonna look it up when I get home. I forgot of course.

So i am checking in with Ricky and Herbe and Ricky posted a link to it on their forum. I'm thinking, ok why not.

For reals, if you have not watched it, don't. It was by far the most disturbing thing I have ever seen. Waaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!

However, the reations to it on youtube are hilarious.

So for the four or five of you that read here. I need addresses for Christmas cards. I think I still have Walt's, Holly's, and Ru's. I need Michael and Kevins' and Taylor if he is comfy. Everyone else has a po box of some sort I can find. Email me at missxomisery@aol.com and I promise I will respect the restraining order this time ;).

Ok, I am off to find something that will erase that horrible image out of my mind.

I hate being a Representative of my Company

sometimes...But I will get back to that.

April has been my best friend since I was 6 years old. I love her like family. I love her family like family. her family will be coming to my house for Christmas. For her 30th birthday (which is on new years eve) Derek and I are taking her to Disneyland.

In 1997, April's brother Robbie passed away from cancer at the age of 18. We were all devistated. The thing is, when I mourne, I like to be alone. i have one gigantic emotional fit then continue to face the world. April on the other hand needs to be around the people she loves. I couldn't be there for her. I dunno, his 28th birthday was last week and April still doesn't got to work, watches all of his favorite movies, does what she needs to. I remember after we went to his graduation (Aunt Peggy accepted his diploma) April said she always imagined Robbie and I getting married. That was probably the first and only time we grieved together. My mom has a picture of us after our cry, sounds wierd I know, but I love that picture. I miss Robbie, a lot. He was funny, had a great laugh. Very handsome. I hate that I am not remembering as much as I used to. But I will always remember his laugh. I know it's been ten years, but you know, I don't want to forget. With that being said, next subject.

Of course everyone knows that gay men and women can't be legally married. Some states, like California, have passed laws granting Domestic Partnerships that give the couples the same rights are married people and in my industry that means we can list them as spouses and married. I guess in Washington state they passed some similar laws granting some rights for domestic partners. A gentleman wrote in to my company two weeks ago and said hey these laws were passed, what does that mean for me and my husband. I told him I would look into it. Our "legal" department states that the laws passed do not require us to give same sex couples the married rate and we wont.

So i have to write this man and tell him that the only thing I can do is list him as a domestic partner on their policy, but he can't have a married rate. This is where I had to separate my work persona from what I really wanted to say to this guy. My email to him was more personalized then I am supposed to write and if my boss read it, I would more than likely be "talked to."

I had an emotional day and needed to vent. I love my blog. I would love my blg more if it gave me ice cream and washed my car...but i'm not picky.

I have been thinking...I was actually inspired...but I think it would be fun to be on a podcast. But then I think, oh yea, I don't do the computer so well and oh, yea...what the fuck would I talk about. oh well, I shall continue to be a loyal participant. It's a random thought.

Ok my brain is tired. i think i'm done. yup.

Porn for Taylor and me

For reals, this man is so hot! Grrr!

My name is what?

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)
Holly Cruiser
2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Chocolate Malted Crunch Chocolate Chip
3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
V Pem
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Red Giraffe
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Naomi San Diego
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Pem Va
7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, first tool that comes to mind, put “The” at the beginning)
The Purple Wrench
8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Dick Robert hahahaha
9. STRIPPER NAME : (favorite candy, the name of your favorite perfume/cologne)
Krackel Obsession
10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names )
Francis Lee

I got the fever

Last night, after Derek got home from work, Derek and I went to the Viejas Casino. I am notorious for losing all of my money in 20 minutes. I don't ever cash out when I should. I always think one more time. haha.

So last night we were down about $50 bucks. Derek and I were kinda of done and I was bummed because the Wheel of Fortune game was down. So as we were trying to find the exit, I see three mini Wheel of Fortune games. They called to me! Pay Sajack's sweet voice asking me what I would do with all the money I won. Vanna White cheering me on. Derek gave me a five and said ok this is the last time.

Well the mini Wheel games are penny slots. So I lost it all but I think 90 cents. I bet as much as I could on each line and I got a wheel spin. I ended up winning $24 bucks :) I wanted to keep going, but Derek hit the cash out button.

So Pat Sajack, Derek and I had Dennys at 2am with all the money I won. Derek is from the british persuasion when it comes to breakfast. It's called heart attack meat plate. he had 8 pieces of sausage, 2 pieces of ham, 2 eggs, hash browns, and toast. He said it was the closest thing he could find to a proper british breakfast. What ticks me off is Derek is probably 130 pounds :/ bastard.

When we went to scotland, I had never seen so much pork product in my life. I don't eat the pig so I would have scones with cheese and jam (sounds gross, but it is really good)

April is coming over for dinner and CSI. Have I ever mentioned my attraction to gray haired men...Of course I have my love for the Bens and matts of the world. But for real, I love william petersen...HAWT!

Ramble Ramble Ramble

I have found that the steam I had when I first started this blog is dwindling. but I think it's quality not quantity. riiiight!

Anywho...

For those who have asked about my sister...Thank you and I am sorry I haven't gotten back to any of you regarding it. My sister is fine. Apparently she has not been eating. her excuse is that she doesn't have any money. Well, I don't have anything mature to say to that. I am angry at her for lieing to me about it. I specifically asked her if she had been eating and she said she had. My sister makes extremely poor decisions when it comes to her money. I had been helping her for almost two years. It got to be too much. She also would rather get stoned and wallow in her misery than go grocery shopping. She is 25 years old. She is at the point where she needs to sink or swim. I can't help her anymore. So yes, she is fine from her stint in the ER, everything else, not so much.

Back when I began the love of my life posts, I had talked about David. I actually found him on the myspace. He is married with three children. His wife is very pretty. I sent him a message, not really expecting to hear anything back. He actually did write me back and we have traded a few emails. I'm happy that he has grown up. He seems to be doing well. I'm happy for him.

This whole week of fires, ER visits, and just normal life has taken it's toll on me. I went home a few hours early on Friday because I began crying and couldn't stop. I think i needed to have a good cry and some rest. My sleep pattern has been all out of whack, I haven't been eating as well as I should. I haven't gone back to my awful ways, but i haven't been drinking as much water. I still have been exercising 5 days a week, but I really think the added stress and lack of good food has altered my mood greatly. I really need to get back on track.

Have any of you seen the preview for August Rush? It looks like a make Nessa cry movie. I haven't really heard anything else about it.





ok, I am off to do something else....Like take a nap haha!