Catch Up

I have been a lazy blogger. Sometimes, I have so many things going on in my brain, I am not sure how to address it. Right now, I have a nice migraine and the meds are making me feel right as rain with a large touch of the drowzy. So after this little ramble, I am going back to bed.

Went out with Kevy last friday. Had our usual date at the Applebees where the only thing vegetarian was their drinks, so I did just that. Caramel Appletinis are my new best friend! We played cath up and discussed how I disapproved of the new girlfriend (who is actually an ex-girlfriend who cheated on him with three or four guys, now she's got a kid and baby daddy ran out. hmmmm, red flag!)

While we were at the park we saw some drunk guy playing Mike Tyson's punchout with a payphone. A cop showed up later and said we should probably move a long sing it's not a good place to be that late.

I get to meet Warren Buffett on Monday. That's kinda cool. They sent us emails at work on what we were allowed to do and stuff. No cell phone pics, no autographs, I don't remember the other thing. He is having his picture taken with our team though and I will be getting a copy. Maybe I can figure out how to post it.

How excited am I about President Obama! I had to work yesterday and missed pretty much everything, I did get to hear a bit on the radio. And was happy to see that he has a lot of LGBT friendly items on his agenda that you can check out here :
http://www.whitehouse.gov/agenda/civil_rights/

I have a very positive outlook on things concerning our country. I think we picked the right man for the job!

Ok, I am about down for the count. Ni ni's for Nessa

a younger guy

Chapter two of Vanessa's loves...Tim

Tim was 17 and I was 20. Not a horrible difference. Tim and I grew up together. I was friends with April and Tim was friends with her younger brother.

Tim was the first person I had sex with, the first guy i lived with, the first guy I had a bank account with.

Tim and I had date nights where we would go to Family Fun Center and play all those kiddie games for tickets. We were saving the tickets for one of those lame gifts. As lame as it sounds it was honestly very sweet. We would walk amongst the screaming brats er kids hand in hand.

We were together for 2 years....6 months longer than we should have been. i have a soft spot in my heart for him.

We didn't really talk after he moved out. He randomly instant messaged me after he moved to Idaho and said:

McChit3: hey I want to let you know that you are a great person and I still love you

McChit3: i still care bout what happens to you though i might not say it or act like it

McChit3: i just wanted to let you know that I still care bout you

I had saved that convo on a diary I had back them. very sweet. He isn't a bad guy, we were too young for that mature of a relationship.

He still talks to my mom all the time. My mom says he's doing great.

Tonight I went out to dinner with Kevy. We had a good time :) He was flirting with the cashier at Office Depot and had to point out 6 times I was married to her. I had to go outside cause I wanted to laugh really hard. He needs a how to pick up chicks for dummies book

I bought the Labyrinth soundtrack today! I am listening to it right now! i love David Bowie. Love him. Here is David Bowie with one of my new favorite bands Arcade Fire



and then



So damn hot...This man ages so well.

anyways...food

smartstart cereal w/ soy milk
cheez-its
grapes
pineapple
cheese sammie
bruchetta burger from Applebees
2 long island ice teas
51 oz of water
2 diet cokes
one scoop of ice cream

Sicky Sickerton and her pal Kevy

I woke up about 10 times last night throwing my guts up. So needless to say, I was a no-show at work. I came downstairs at 5am choked down a slimfast so I would have something in my stomach. I went back to sleep on the couch watching Saturday Night Fever. When I finally got up I read about 1700 vegetable recipies online. Need inspiration for dinners. I love love love cooking, but I like cooking rich, creamy, cheesey, and all in all bad for you dishes. So I need to re-train myself and experiment a bit. Plus, Derek's mom wasn't exactly into vegetables or fruit, so either is Derek. So it's a matter of hiding things from him so he eats them. I'm good at it :)

i feel 100% times better from this morning. I'm so glad, I really hate calling in.

i talked to Kevy last night for three hours. For those of you who don't know who Kevy is, i will give the short version of this story.

Kevin was a co worker of mine like seven years ago. Kevin and I share the same passion for music and hung out quite a bit. I had a huge crush on Kevin...huge, massive, gigantic. There was a time when I had just broken up with nigel and he had broken up with his girl and be were almost like re-bound buddies. Not in the physical sense, but we were there for one another. It came to a point where I thought things were going to progress to the next level. Kevin ended up getting back together with the ex and I was crushed. Shortly after, Derek and I started talking about being together and the rest is history.

Kevin and I have discussed our relationship on a few occassions. He said that he didn't know that I was that into him and he wishes that things could have been different. But that was then and we have both agreed that our friendship is what's important and we are working on that. It's one of those, what might have been moments I guess. Kevin is extremely important to me and always will be.

This is where it gets hard. I had a roommate named Marcia when Derek and I got married. Derek and Marcia had been drinking and Marcia said something to Derek that made him think that Kevin and I were more than friends and physical things happened, but I don't know what was said. Kevin and I never kissed mind you. So Derek hates Kevin and makes it difficult for us to hang out. I would never cheat on Derek nor would I just stay with him if I wanted to be with someone else. I don't think Derek believes me. So to keep the peace in my home, I would often avoid Kevin. I'm tired of doing it.

Kevin was also a friend of Bryce's. So I called Kevin yesterday and we talked about all kind of things. It was nice to have a conversation with someone who gets me. Derek loves me and I love him, but sometimes I think he just says what he thinks I want to hear and we don't have a great deal of things in common.

Kevin (whom i affectionately call Kevy) sent me a text message this morning that said:

"Thx for the talk yesterday, it was cool 2 talk like we did in the past. It's good 2 have u back around & i just wanted u to realize how much I appreciate your friendship."

It made me feel good.

Well I'm off to do dishes since I feel better, then prolly off to bed since I'm tired.

Food for today:
silm fast shake
cheez-its
pineapple
cheese quesadilla
macaroni and beef lean cuisine
55 oz of water (I'm working on another 40 oz now) hahaha 40 oz