Saturday, December 6, 2008

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A couple things have me down this week.

Found out someone is writing emails and signing my name to them and not being very nice in the messages. I don't know who it is or why they are doing it, well they are doing it to be hateful and cause drama. Well mr. or ms. email writer, Karma will come to you. I do ask that if anyone does get an email and youre not sure it's from me or not, check the IP address (It should tell you where the emails are coming from.)or contact me through twitter or facebook, I will be happy to confirm my email address with you.

The biggest thing that has me down is my mother had to put Scooter down today. We got scooter when I was 12 or 13. (I'm 30 now). She was having health problems and we all knew it was coming. Last week I told my mom she should probably take Scooter in for another check up to make sure she isn't in any pain or suffering. I am guessing the vet didn't give my mom good news. I would normally be crying like a baby right now, but instead, I feel relieved. I knew it was time. When I was up there in October, I knew that Scooter was ready to go. I don't know how I knew, I just got that feeling. So I am very sad, but relieved she won't be in pain anymore.

I know next week will be better, just a little sad that people are dicks and very sad about my Scooter Pie.


Starshine said...

Awww Nessa, I'm sorry to hear about Scooter. It's extremely hard when putting your animal down. I had to do it as well a few years ago and I thought I had lost everything in the world. She was my pup, a dog we weren't supposed to have, my sleeping buddy, my dress up doll, my go to when I was sad, my "model" so too say when I decided I REALLY loved photography. What made her death even worse was the fact that I barely spent any time with her before she was gone. I had moved out on my own and only saw her when I went to visit. The day we had to put her down I was at work and my mom kept me updated, they gave her pain medicine to try and hold off til I got off work, but work luckily let me go so I could go see her off. That might sound silly to some people, leaving work for an animal, but that was my girl. I miss her terribly and cry every so often thinking about her (a little right now) you just can't help it. They are a part of your life and grown into your heart just the way your family and own children do, it would be immoral not to have emotions. So I'm glad you feel relieved and not like you missed out like I did. I guess I can say my relief came when I got to be the only one in the room with her after she had passed and I held her a little bit longer.

I hope your week gets better and I hope you feel better. Listen to some christmas music!! <3

Mandie said...

Nessa- I'm sorry to hear that Scooter had to be put down. I know its hard though. I'm thinking of you and sending you lots of love and hugs xoxo

[LaLa] Lauren said...

Aww I'm sorry. I know what its like to lose a pet )=

diane petkoff :: designer said...

i'm so sorry to hear about your loss. i hope you have a better day today.

here's one of carlos' favorite quotes: "don't let the bastards get you down." i'm not sure why people do what they do, but know that for every fool out there, there are 100 people that support & love you.

xoxo diane

Sevi said...

I am very sorry to hear about Scooter. It is never easy saying goodbye to a pet that we love. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hold on shifting gears....
Now for the asshat that is doing this are correct the Universe has a wonderful way of serving them what they have dished out. I am sorry someone has to behave this way. Jealousy makes stupid people even more stupid.

Hugs Doll, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Christian said...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss! Hugs!!!
And who the fuck is writing those fucking emails?! I'm going to kick their ass when I find out!!!

Malchera said...

Sorry about Scooter. I hope you get your internet issue resolved

Michael Sage said...

Thinking about you and and sending happy thoughts your way. At this point... whoever is sending those emails is simply jealous and needs to try looking past their ego for a spot of clarity. Not likely to happen given their age but what the hell? it needed to be said.

A double fuck you to whoever is being a prick to you.

Drum Riley Calhoun said...

Nessa, I am so sorry that Scooter is gone, but you knew it was time and your Mom did the right thing. I know its hard, and I dread the day that one of mine is ready to go. Chin up, young person.

RambleRedhead said...


You know I love you and so sorry about your family pet. I have had two cats that were part of my life for many many years and so I understand the heartache you are going through. They are part of your family and the key thing is remember all of the good memories you have and knowing you loved Scooter and provided a loving home!

As far as the other bit of drama - karma will get them and as many of already said - remember there are far more out here that LOVE you and please don't waste a minute thinking about the asswipes!

Anonymous said...

Hi Nessa. Always focus on people who like and love you. Immature people are like flys. Annoying as hell.

I'm so very sorry to hear about your Scooter. It's never an easy time. Many of us understand your pain.