Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Archerr, My sister, and Charlie Brown

Yesterday I was upset with Archerr for comments he made regarding the fires here in California. He apologized today and I really appreciated it. His apology was sincere and I knew he didn't intend to upset anyone, SO I don't hold one ounce of a grudge. Love ya Mr. Archerr!

I left work at 1:15 today to take my sister to the emergency room. She passed out at work and was incoherent. So we sat in the ER for hours to find out there is nothing wrong, which is great. But my work only allows sick time for parents, grandparents, and children. So I have to argue with the powers than be that I shouldn't be penelized because we were in the ER.

I am sitting here watching It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown. I love Charlie Brown. I always thought of myself as Lucy. A couple of blockheads sitting in a pumpkin patch! hahahaha!

I love everything about Charlie Brown. I always have a soft spot for the underdog.

Ok I am going to eat my frosty and go sleepies.

I really am glad my sister is ok...I was kinda scared.

Monday, October 29, 2007

Zoning the hell out O_-

So updates galore. well, not really.

So everything is sorta going back to normal. I can honestly say that I have never seen so many fire trucks and police vehicles in my life. When I was driving home Sunday there was a line of nine green colored fire trucks hauling ass up the road.

That I know of, two men lost their homes at my work. A bunch of people were evacuated and only a portion of people have returned home. the fires aren't out, but for the most part, its getting resolved.

I have to sent a very special thanks to Taylor, Taffy, and Rodan from Pod is my Copilot for their very kind words and thoughts. It meant a lot :)

I don't know how many readers listen to Archer's podcast, but I still find what he said upsetting. But I guess I really can't blame him. If California is protrayed as a upper class fun zone, then I guess I can't expect people to empathize with us po' folk. I'm not mad at him, I think I was surprised by it. I'll leave it at that.

For reals ya'll, I just saw a commercial for Charmin where the bears had paperballs stuck to their butt. i tried to find the commercial on the youtube, but instead found this:

I say....WTF?

Friday, October 26, 2007

Long Distance Dedication

With the reunion of My pals Michael and Mr. Bee I thought a little mood music was in order. Enjoy boys! (that rhymed har har)


Tuesday, October 23, 2007

emotional overload

I have been so lucky that this fire has not come near my home. The closest it was I think was about 15-20 miles but then the winds shifted and it started to go back the other way. I have been keeping an eye on the news, answering the text messages from co-workers and family.

I will not be required to return to work until Friday as things stand now. I am waiting to hear from my supervisor. He's the type of guy to call everyone to make sure they're ok...he hasn't which leads me to believe he was evacuated. (I believe) he lives in an area that was hit pretty hard. So I am keeping good thoughts going his way.

The govenater was down here all day surveying the scene and Bush will be here on Thursday. FEMA arrived earlier today also. heh, I keep say FEMA's here ya'all! ala Britney Spears.

I have to say, I love fire fighters. I love them. They are working so hard to keep as many structures standing as possible. Working days straight with little sleep. I love them. I am sending them extra special good thoughts.

Thank you all for your thoughts and kind words. It's nice to know you have love coming your way when your scared and worried out of your mind.

Monday, October 22, 2007

For reals, we're burning

This might give an idea of how bad it is right now. For reals, I am freaking out. I live in Santee.

The winds and smoke have been so bad, they haven't been able to flight planes over to dump some water.

I am safe right now, and I am sooo thankful. I really hope that everyone is safe and thank you thank thank you for the places who have offered shelter for the animals.

Sorry ya'll. I am babbling like whoa. But I'm scared ya'll. I am glad I stole the green blanket from my mom. I don't care if I come off like a cry baby right now. this shit sucks.

California is burning

There are 8 fires burning in San Diego county right now :(

My home is not in the vicinity of any of these fires; however, I think my supervisor's being evacuated. I don't have a personal phone number for him, I really hope he is ok. With his recent troubles with his health, i am worried.

It smells of smoke, even inside with all the windows closed. I have a towel in the crack of my front door. My animals are staying close to me, They seem mellow, but I think my anxiety has made them want to stay near me. Does that make sense?

This is scary. I remember how scared I was during the cedar fires in 2003. I could see the fire coming over the hill then. I don't see any fire now, but the smell.

My office is closed for sure today and tomorrow. i would say 90% of our schools are closed either due to the fire or the air quality.

I really hope that everyone gets to where they need to be safely. If anything changes, I do have somewhere to go. My pal Todd said I could come crash, he already has a co-worker of ours and her family.

I want my mommie :(

Saturday, October 20, 2007

No witty title

So while I was parusing my pals on the livejournal and my pal Bran posted a link to a documentary-type film called Zeitgeist. Which he (bran) described as propaganda and conspiracy theories, but states we should watch it anyways. So, I take the two hours to watch it because another person's view on religion and government always interests me. I don't know how much I agree or disagree with, but it was definitely interesting. I have always had a mild agnostic view on politics and religion so anything that sparks my brain a thinking is good.

So if you have some free time, I say watch it. If anything, it is interesting to see what this person's (the director) point of view is on the world and what's going on in it.

I know that some people are offended by talks of religion or government. Please don't look at it as a personal attack on your beliefs, it is just another idea of how another group of people have on how the world works.

One thing I do believe, is that if people took the time to see someone else's point of view, that understanding wouldn't be so hard to come by.

I am also curious on peoples' opinions on this movie. So let me know :)

Friday, October 19, 2007


When I was about 8 years old, I used to watch KIDS incorporated religiously! I was looking for The Never Ending Story song on you tube and find this:

In this video you will see the song stylings of Martika and Stacey Fergeson (AKA Fergie) and the drumming of mr. Mario Lopez! (he's playing during the second song from the goonies)

This shit cracks me up. When I was 8 I used to tell people that this one was my cousin:

She ended up being Jennifer Love Hewitt. hahaha! She's my cousin ;)

I love youtube.

Across the Universe

Yesterday, Derek and I went out for lunch and to see Across the Universe.

Now, I was on the fence about seeing it as i was getting mixed reviews. Some people loved it, some people said it wasn't worth seeing in the theater, some said to skip it all together. I wanted to love this movie. i haven't fell in love with a film since Moulin Rouge!

So we went during bargain hour (woohoo!)

First - I really liked it. I didn't love it, but I really liked it. Visually, it was beautiful, the symbolism, the colors, really great.

The story - I felt there were parts that didn't add anything to the film, if anything, they confused me. It was too long. I felt that the movie had ended three or four times. I hate that feeling. When I'm like ok roll the credits, wait no? I don't go to the movies ever because I can't sit and pay attention that long. I do think that having a Janis type character and a Jimi Hendrix Character wasn't necessary, I think they could have been regular people and it wouldn't have taken anything away from it. I think there were characters created just for the sake of adding in another song.

Eddie Izzard as Mr. Kite freaked me the hell out. That whole song freaked me out. but in a good way

A lot of people loved the Let it be number. Other than saying hey racism sucks ass, I didn't understand it's point of being in the film. I also didn't understand the purpose of having Prudence in the I want to hold your hand part either. I guess they were showing where the characters came from. But to be honest, I don't think it mattered since I was under the impression that it was a story between Lucy and Jude. I think the Prudence aspect of the story could have been removed and it may have helped the film flow better. (And cut out 20 minutes from the movie)

The best part of this whole film was the music of course.

My favorite parts via song...
Come together (when the jimi-esque guy comes to NY)
I want you
Mr. Kite

Out of 5 stars I would give it a 3. I think seeing it in the theater adds to the experience due the surround sound and the colors. If you go purely on story, netflix.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

For my own knowledge mostly

Chiba gets nothing

Elliott Smith (my heart) was tragically taken from us three years ago this month. His "girlfriend" sued his estate to get more than a million dollars. She lost. From what i've heard and read she may have had something to do with it. It's just really sad. I would have to say the majority of songwriters I love are gone too soon.

For those who do not know Mr. Smith, he was nominated for an oscar in 1997 for his song Miss Misery (from good will hunting, written and staring Taylor and my oscar winning husbands, Ben and Matt)


Wednesday, October 17, 2007

more morbid nessa

So I was reading up on the black Dahlia on wikipedia (because I didn't know who she was) and I ended up on a page that taked about Helene Jegado (look her up) and whomever edited her page said This lady was very dumb and gay.

what the fuck?

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Where's Kevin?

So In the morning I watch VH1 while eating breakfast and I am watching this video and thinking, this is like a bad boy bad video, but with older dudes....

Then I realize...

It's the backstreet boys

Like a new release...

But no Kevin :(

Shut up!

PS Taylor this is not over.
PSS Ben and Matt say good morning ;)

Monday, October 15, 2007

Oh it's on

My future ex-husband.

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Suck it!

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Be you and no one else

As said by the Daily Purge and Pod is my copilot

October 11th is National Coming Out Day and for those of you that have chosen this day to do so, I say congratulations! You have a lot of support, love, and hope around you. Be proud of who you are, you have no one to answer to but yourself!

My first experience with a person who was gay was with my mother's best friend growing up named Vance. They were so close, i called him uncle Vance. I don't remember specific things as I very young. But I remember when it became apparent that uncle Vance was gay. I believe I was six years old. My mom took me to his house where he lived with his partner. They were holding hands, doing what any other couple would be doing. I don't remember questioning it, being confused, or anything of that nature.

My uncle Vance was also HIV positive. I don't know if it was from drug use or unprotected sex. My mom didn't talk about it with me. I hear a lot of it was the early 80's and no one knew any better. Vance moved to Alaska in the mid 80's. He committed suicide about 15 years ago. My mom said he just couldn't handle what was happening to him. It really is very sad.

I am appreciative that I had the experience of having Vance in my life. My mother isn't usually accepting of others who are "different." I think that if Vance were straight, I may not have the same feelings or opinions when it comes to the Gay community. But then again, I could have.

I guess what I am saying is that I wish nothing but good things for anyone regardless of who you are, gay, straight, ect. Just be who you are and be proud. There are a ton of people who are proud of you, including me.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Home Sweet Home?

So yes I am home now. Although I had a huge arguement with my mommie (yes I still call her mommie) I miss her horribly and worry about her all the time. Derek and I are seriously considering moving up there, if all goes well with us. So far, so good. We are communicating well and finding little things to do together.

My poor pal April was dumped via email this week :/ It came out of no where from what I can tell. She was talking about spending time with him on the day I left, I come back and my sister says he emailed her and dumped her. It's like dude, grow some balls. Over the phone is better than email. I feel for her because it's her first serious guy in a long time. He's a shithead.

I have 90+ podcasts to catch up on. so many. Most are the Adam Corolla show. I might just delete those.

I'm just babbling now.

Walt, Holly, and Ru the postcards should be arriving shortly. I mailed them before I left. I didn't forget about you :)

Wednesday, October 3, 2007


So yes her I am in cold, windy, rainy Idaho. So far my trip has really sucked ass. My mom and I had a few drinks and she made a comment about how I lie like my father. She meant it in a "funny way." Well, Being that my father abandoned us when i was 6 and called once in a while to tell me he was gay, had aids, had cancer, was dieing. Not of which was true. He is just a mental case that lied all the time. So me being completely wasted, freaked out, and proceeded to scream at my mom, step dad, and husband random things. Mostly my mom. I was so angry because she kept saying I needed to calm down and i was being silly. The more she told me to stop, the angrier I got. My mom continued to say things to me that were hurtful and I retaliated equally. It got to the point where I had my bags packed and I was walking in the rain to the airport.

So yea, I didn't leave. But i am really uncomfortable. I play it off like things are fine, but for reals. I am tired of having this hole in my heart because of my father. I am tired of feeling like my mom resents me for it. I am 29 years old and should be able to get over this :(

I haven't really kept track of what i have been eating. I the worst thing I had was Sonics on the first. It was a hamburger and a cherry limeaid. They don't have a sonics by my house, so it was my treat. Everything else has been on the healthy side. My mom does lo-carb stuff, so there isn't a lot to be pigging out on you know.

I watched Pushing Daisies tonight. It was pretty good. I really don't watch the TV, but i might give this show another shot.

Anyways, I am going to go. Hopefully my next post won't be gloom and despair.

I miss my dog :(