Friday, November 30, 2007

December 1, 2007

I have been thinking really hard about what I would like to say concerning World Aids Day. I honestly don't think I can say anything that will do any justice. I can only be simple.

For information regarding HIV/AIDS you can go to or

For more information on the RED campaign, what you can do in your area, or donate funds. You can go to or

It starts with us all. I think we have all in one way or another been affected by HIV/AIDS. It's important to be educated or educate others.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

I'm dreaming

Here are some clips to help with you scrooges out there...cough (holly and walt) cough cough! ;)

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Hmm Haaaw

I feel the need to post, but don't feel the need to say anything.

do you ever see someone and feel a twinge of regret?

I need a hug.

Monday, November 26, 2007


So most people know that I wake up around 3:45-4:00 am so I can work out, make a proper breakfast, get the house picked up (because british men are sloppy cunts)(sorry I love that word)

My sister had gotten in the habit of text messaging me at like 11:30 with random pictures. I have asked her to stop because it wakes me up. She complied. Well her friend Mike has taken to texting me from her phone saying things like "Vagina makes me moist" or something. i asked her to ask him not to do that. And he complied...until last night.

I received text messages from my sister's roommate's phone saying more of the same. i had to call my sister at almost midnight to ask him to stop. So I slept like shit. So when I see that piece of shit (only cause i'm grumpy and tired) at work, I will be sticking my foot up his ass.

I was craving salad like whoa last night, so Derek graciously picked up a southwestern cobb for me on his way home from the Rite-Aids. I am also trying to find a winter veggie recipie for Christmas. My pal April and I are doing a stepped-up Christmas dinner on christmas eve. The only thing "traditional" will be the turkey. Instead of potatos, were doing gnocchi, a cranerry dipping sauce for the turkey instead of gravey, some sort of stuffing/dressing. Do any of you have any ideas? I've been through all my Rachal Ray and Paula Deen cook books and about 30 pages of the 826 pages has.

Ok I need to go get ready for work and try to wake up. Even after my walk I am still dragging balls.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Last Call!

Ok I am doing Christmas cards....I have the following peoples done:

Kevin, Michael, and John
Ricky and Herbe

I know that giving strange girls on the internet your address is odd, but...I have a few other people i would like to send a card to (Taylor, archerr)

If it's ok, send me your address ( If not, it's groovy.

i really hope I am not forgetting anyone :( I am horrible at remembering names.

It's Christmas time ya'll!!!


Friday, November 23, 2007

Quick Question

Who lives in Moorefield, WV?

Speak now!

To Lie and Die in LA

So, on Taylor's advice, I added this movie to my netflix queue.

My pal April is also a William Petersen lover so we made a night of it. We ordered Olive Garden to go, and popped it in.

Ok, I was expecting maybe a fast, badly lit shot of what could have been WP's peen. That is not what I got. I saw flopping around for a good 10 seconds and there was no mistake of that being a peen. hahaha! Yes this was the only reason we watched it!

It actually was an entertaining movie, probably not for it's intended way, but it was good. I could see why Taylor would rewind and play over again ;x yum-o

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Bye Thanksgiving! Hello Chrimbal!

So Derek and I are huge Christmas (or Chrimbal) nerds and have already decorated the tree(s) and the house. I made a little video to show you :D! Yes, I am lame!

Chrimbal Trees

Yes I have 2 trees. the little one at the end Derek bought for us on our first Christmas as a married couple. We wouldn't have had one unless he did cause we were super poor then. He said he grabbed it because it was super cheap. I like it. The big one is also a fakey because the cats are retarded about real ones. So when they are too old to care, we will get real ones.

hehe! I am off to bed, I get the pleasure of working :/

I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving and you stuffed yourselves silly :D

Wednesday, November 21, 2007


Happy Thanksgiving!

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Love to Eat Turkey in a Big Brown Shoe

adam sandler

I am actually excited about Thanksgiving...That's because the day after I can break out the christmas music!!!!!!

Hehehe! And the decorations!!! I love it!

I'm bored :/


Monday, November 19, 2007

Pre-Thanksgiving Thoughts

You know, I have used this blog for a lot of complaints. From tomorrow through Thanksgiving I will not use this blog for evil. As bad things happen in your life, you tend to forget there are good things. So while I am thinking about my good things, I wanted to write them down so I don't forget.

I am thankful that my loved ones did not loose their homes in the fires
I am thankful that I got to spend time with my mom
I am thankful that Derek and I are trying to be better to one another
I am thankful for my "old" friends April, Keela, Todd, and Ru
I am thankful for my new podcast friends who have been amazingly entertaining and loving.
I am thankful for having a steady job, a roof over my head, and my car making it up that hill.
I am thankful for my Maggie, my Sabrina, and My Jazzmine.
I am extremely thankful for the inspiration others have provided me without even trying. Making me think about life in new ways trying to live a better life and be a better me.

I have to ask you all a question....Are you a good witch or a bad witch? I hope Kevin enjoys his WIZARD OF OZ REFERENCE FOR TODAY!

gobble gobble!

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Nessa the hag...

Ok, so this is my bitch post. I need to vent!

Now, I wake up at 3:45 am 5 days a week, I get up, I work out for 30 minutes, I cook breakfast for Derek and I, and I do the dishes.

Now Derek works nights, so his breakfast is in the fridge when he wakes up. He also has lunch made when he comes home on his break, and has dinner waiting when he comes home. I would say this is true 90% of the time because some days, I am too tired to make dinner sometimes.

Part of our deal is that since I do cook and clean in the morning that derek will make my lunch for work and put the dishes away. Today is like the 3rd day this week that the dishes weren't put away and the ice packs i need for my lunch bag were not in the freezer. On top of that, there was coffee spilled on the counters, food from his dinner left in the sink, his uniform left in a pile in the dining room, two sodas that he drank half of left in various places, the oven light left on, all the fans left on, the DVR and cable box left on, and trash on the floor. Now this probably wouldn't have been a big deal except it's the 3rd time this week I have woken up to a dirty house that was otherwise clean when I went to bed.

Now I don't expect him to scrub the house down everyday, but come on! trash on the floor, the clothes, the spilled coffee! COME ON NOW!

Good thing I woke up early today so I had time to semi-clean up the mess.

Now I am off to shower and face another fun exciting day at the geicos.



Congratulations on being named the official Bruce!!! I am excited for you and look forward to stories of Nemo adventures :)

Saturday, November 17, 2007

I don't want to forget this later on

So I was on the pogo's with my mom playing some solitaire game and I told her that Derek and I are trying to decide what to do for vacation time and we threw around orlando. Derek wants to go to disney world. I said something like, And maybe i can meet Michael Kevin Taylor Ricky ect. Someone in the chat named Derek said were going to Florida? and I said sure, why not. My mom asked how I knew all these men in FL. I said mom their my gays.

The Derek guys says: <---Gay
I say: really, I love the gays
he says: ME TOO!

And I laughed really hard.

My pal Ru turned the big 30 today!

So I say to him Happy Birthday! *hugs* Have a safe trip home!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007


Damn you Daily Purge and Foul Monkeys!

So i am listening to the daily purge this morning and John and Robbie start talking about 2 girls 1 cup. It didn't sound that bad, so I was like, I'm gonna look it up when I get home. I forgot of course.

So i am checking in with Ricky and Herbe and Ricky posted a link to it on their forum. I'm thinking, ok why not.

For reals, if you have not watched it, don't. It was by far the most disturbing thing I have ever seen. Waaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!

However, the reations to it on youtube are hilarious.

So for the four or five of you that read here. I need addresses for Christmas cards. I think I still have Walt's, Holly's, and Ru's. I need Michael and Kevins' and Taylor if he is comfy. Everyone else has a po box of some sort I can find. Email me at and I promise I will respect the restraining order this time ;).

Ok, I am off to find something that will erase that horrible image out of my mind.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

I hate being a Representative of my Company

sometimes...But I will get back to that.

April has been my best friend since I was 6 years old. I love her like family. I love her family like family. her family will be coming to my house for Christmas. For her 30th birthday (which is on new years eve) Derek and I are taking her to Disneyland.

In 1997, April's brother Robbie passed away from cancer at the age of 18. We were all devistated. The thing is, when I mourne, I like to be alone. i have one gigantic emotional fit then continue to face the world. April on the other hand needs to be around the people she loves. I couldn't be there for her. I dunno, his 28th birthday was last week and April still doesn't got to work, watches all of his favorite movies, does what she needs to. I remember after we went to his graduation (Aunt Peggy accepted his diploma) April said she always imagined Robbie and I getting married. That was probably the first and only time we grieved together. My mom has a picture of us after our cry, sounds wierd I know, but I love that picture. I miss Robbie, a lot. He was funny, had a great laugh. Very handsome. I hate that I am not remembering as much as I used to. But I will always remember his laugh. I know it's been ten years, but you know, I don't want to forget. With that being said, next subject.

Of course everyone knows that gay men and women can't be legally married. Some states, like California, have passed laws granting Domestic Partnerships that give the couples the same rights are married people and in my industry that means we can list them as spouses and married. I guess in Washington state they passed some similar laws granting some rights for domestic partners. A gentleman wrote in to my company two weeks ago and said hey these laws were passed, what does that mean for me and my husband. I told him I would look into it. Our "legal" department states that the laws passed do not require us to give same sex couples the married rate and we wont.

So i have to write this man and tell him that the only thing I can do is list him as a domestic partner on their policy, but he can't have a married rate. This is where I had to separate my work persona from what I really wanted to say to this guy. My email to him was more personalized then I am supposed to write and if my boss read it, I would more than likely be "talked to."

I had an emotional day and needed to vent. I love my blog. I would love my blg more if it gave me ice cream and washed my car...but i'm not picky.

I have been thinking...I was actually inspired...but I think it would be fun to be on a podcast. But then I think, oh yea, I don't do the computer so well and oh, yea...what the fuck would I talk about. oh well, I shall continue to be a loyal participant. It's a random thought.

Ok my brain is tired. i think i'm done. yup.

Friday, November 9, 2007

Porn for Taylor and me

For reals, this man is so hot! Grrr!

Thursday, November 8, 2007

My name is what?

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car)
Holly Cruiser
2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Chocolate Malted Crunch Chocolate Chip
3. YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
V Pem
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Red Giraffe
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Naomi San Diego
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Pem Va
7. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, first tool that comes to mind, put “The” at the beginning)
The Purple Wrench
8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Dick Robert hahahaha
9. STRIPPER NAME : (favorite candy, the name of your favorite perfume/cologne)
Krackel Obsession
10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names )
Francis Lee

I got the fever

Last night, after Derek got home from work, Derek and I went to the Viejas Casino. I am notorious for losing all of my money in 20 minutes. I don't ever cash out when I should. I always think one more time. haha.

So last night we were down about $50 bucks. Derek and I were kinda of done and I was bummed because the Wheel of Fortune game was down. So as we were trying to find the exit, I see three mini Wheel of Fortune games. They called to me! Pay Sajack's sweet voice asking me what I would do with all the money I won. Vanna White cheering me on. Derek gave me a five and said ok this is the last time.

Well the mini Wheel games are penny slots. So I lost it all but I think 90 cents. I bet as much as I could on each line and I got a wheel spin. I ended up winning $24 bucks :) I wanted to keep going, but Derek hit the cash out button.

So Pat Sajack, Derek and I had Dennys at 2am with all the money I won. Derek is from the british persuasion when it comes to breakfast. It's called heart attack meat plate. he had 8 pieces of sausage, 2 pieces of ham, 2 eggs, hash browns, and toast. He said it was the closest thing he could find to a proper british breakfast. What ticks me off is Derek is probably 130 pounds :/ bastard.

When we went to scotland, I had never seen so much pork product in my life. I don't eat the pig so I would have scones with cheese and jam (sounds gross, but it is really good)

April is coming over for dinner and CSI. Have I ever mentioned my attraction to gray haired men...Of course I have my love for the Bens and matts of the world. But for real, I love william petersen...HAWT!

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Saturday, November 3, 2007

Ramble Ramble Ramble

I have found that the steam I had when I first started this blog is dwindling. but I think it's quality not quantity. riiiight!


For those who have asked about my sister...Thank you and I am sorry I haven't gotten back to any of you regarding it. My sister is fine. Apparently she has not been eating. her excuse is that she doesn't have any money. Well, I don't have anything mature to say to that. I am angry at her for lieing to me about it. I specifically asked her if she had been eating and she said she had. My sister makes extremely poor decisions when it comes to her money. I had been helping her for almost two years. It got to be too much. She also would rather get stoned and wallow in her misery than go grocery shopping. She is 25 years old. She is at the point where she needs to sink or swim. I can't help her anymore. So yes, she is fine from her stint in the ER, everything else, not so much.

Back when I began the love of my life posts, I had talked about David. I actually found him on the myspace. He is married with three children. His wife is very pretty. I sent him a message, not really expecting to hear anything back. He actually did write me back and we have traded a few emails. I'm happy that he has grown up. He seems to be doing well. I'm happy for him.

This whole week of fires, ER visits, and just normal life has taken it's toll on me. I went home a few hours early on Friday because I began crying and couldn't stop. I think i needed to have a good cry and some rest. My sleep pattern has been all out of whack, I haven't been eating as well as I should. I haven't gone back to my awful ways, but i haven't been drinking as much water. I still have been exercising 5 days a week, but I really think the added stress and lack of good food has altered my mood greatly. I really need to get back on track.

Have any of you seen the preview for August Rush? It looks like a make Nessa cry movie. I haven't really heard anything else about it.

ok, I am off to do something else....Like take a nap haha!