I hate being a Representative of my Company

sometimes...But I will get back to that.

April has been my best friend since I was 6 years old. I love her like family. I love her family like family. her family will be coming to my house for Christmas. For her 30th birthday (which is on new years eve) Derek and I are taking her to Disneyland.

In 1997, April's brother Robbie passed away from cancer at the age of 18. We were all devistated. The thing is, when I mourne, I like to be alone. i have one gigantic emotional fit then continue to face the world. April on the other hand needs to be around the people she loves. I couldn't be there for her. I dunno, his 28th birthday was last week and April still doesn't got to work, watches all of his favorite movies, does what she needs to. I remember after we went to his graduation (Aunt Peggy accepted his diploma) April said she always imagined Robbie and I getting married. That was probably the first and only time we grieved together. My mom has a picture of us after our cry, sounds wierd I know, but I love that picture. I miss Robbie, a lot. He was funny, had a great laugh. Very handsome. I hate that I am not remembering as much as I used to. But I will always remember his laugh. I know it's been ten years, but you know, I don't want to forget. With that being said, next subject.

Of course everyone knows that gay men and women can't be legally married. Some states, like California, have passed laws granting Domestic Partnerships that give the couples the same rights are married people and in my industry that means we can list them as spouses and married. I guess in Washington state they passed some similar laws granting some rights for domestic partners. A gentleman wrote in to my company two weeks ago and said hey these laws were passed, what does that mean for me and my husband. I told him I would look into it. Our "legal" department states that the laws passed do not require us to give same sex couples the married rate and we wont.

So i have to write this man and tell him that the only thing I can do is list him as a domestic partner on their policy, but he can't have a married rate. This is where I had to separate my work persona from what I really wanted to say to this guy. My email to him was more personalized then I am supposed to write and if my boss read it, I would more than likely be "talked to."

I had an emotional day and needed to vent. I love my blog. I would love my blg more if it gave me ice cream and washed my car...but i'm not picky.

I have been thinking...I was actually inspired...but I think it would be fun to be on a podcast. But then I think, oh yea, I don't do the computer so well and oh, yea...what the fuck would I talk about. oh well, I shall continue to be a loyal participant. It's a random thought.

Ok my brain is tired. i think i'm done. yup.

I'm tired is the story of my life

I have been so tired this week. I feel like when anybody asks how I am, I am always saying i'm tired. Blah. Tomorrow, I am working some overtime instead of sleeping all day. I am only working 5 hours, but that will be like an extra $150 bucks on the pay check :)

But for reals...people, when you move...CHANGE YOUR ADDRESS ON YOUR DAMN INSURANCE POLICY. I work in the internet department for GEICO. Once a month we send out emails to customers who report a change of address to the post office asking them to change their address with us. Normally we'll have a steady queue of requests, never getting above 40-50...Yea today 200+ all day ZzZzZz

So, I was looking through the facebook....this is the same for myspace...

Why have a profile if it's going to be private? I understand for kids under 15 and stuff...But for reals? I don't get it. If these are social, networking sites...Why make them private and block anyone from seeing you?

Love and good thoughts going out to Michael from Qcast Connections on his audition! My fingers are crossed.

Food for today was...

Breakfast
a piece of toast with an egg and a piece of cheese
Snacks
grapes, carrots, sun chips
lunch
turkey sammie, string cheese
dinner
chicken and black bean salad
liquids
fat free chocolate milk
50 oz of water (I'm working on more)
1 diet coke

I have walked every days so far this week, I have also started doing some crunches cause i have a belly.

i tried on a pair of pants I bought 6 months ago last night. When I bought them I couldn't get them buttoned. Now I can get them buttoned and zipped. They are still a little tight for my liking, but I could wear them. It was motivating.

I have to say that my pals Walt, Holly, Mr. Bee, Ru, your words of encouragement have seriously helped and I thank you a million times.

I hope starbucks is open around 5:30am tomorrow so I can get me a pumpkin spice frap before work. Taylor...its your fault i need one!