What a week

I have had an interesting week. I am still reeling over WMBYS. I go from being angry, to sad, to frustrated, to whatever. It is hard to put a lot of yourself into a project and then be told you can't do it anymore. I am so appreciative of the emails, phone calls, comments I have received. At first, I really thought that I could be ostracized from the community I love so much, but I was so wrong. I have never been so happy about being wrong. And yes I am very sad things happened how they did. But you know, I have learned that I let my emotions get the best of me sometimes and that's ok. I would rather be emotional then a cold person with no feelings you know? I will probably still be sad about WMBYS for awhile, but I am ready to move on. I don't want to be surrounded with negative feelings or thoughts when the whole experience was the complete opposite for me. I had a very good time doing it and i have met some fucking awesome people through it. That can never be bad. I may venture out on my own, but I am taking a break for now. Not sure what I want to do.

Moving on...

From what I gather from my mom's cryptic description, my stepdad has some weird growth on his stomach. They are gauging his symptoms and it could be nothing or something more severe. My stepdad takes crap care of himself, so I am hoping it's just him being fat. We'll see. No news is good news.

My mom's hand looks so gross. The whole top of her finger that she cut off is black and bleck. She's ok for the most part, but she can skip the ER this week.

I thought my air conditioner broke this morning and I was scured! September is the hottest part of summer for the East County and I was not having that. Derek fixed it because he knew what was good for him. I am a grouchy bitch when I am hot.

I have been doing great with the vegetarian diet this week. I am an emotional eater, so i was concerned I would be like, fuck it I don't care. But I stayed on track and I feel so good about it.

Ok I am off to play Sims. I know i'm a dork!

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I will keep this brief.

I will no longer be participating with the We're Mean Because You're Stupid podcast. I was asked to leave because of my behavior regarding the situation I blogged about before.

I do not have anything bad to say about Holly or Walt, I won't say anything negative about them, and I wish them luck with continuing the podcast on their own.

I am very thankful for the people I have met through this show who i would never have met otherwise. I hope that I can continue my friendships with you all and that you keep in touch.

Thank you so very much for making me feel included in this community when I didn't feel at home anywhere else.

Nessa
XO

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Junk that has happened in the last week or so:w

My step-dad has some weird hard spot in his stomach and they can't figure out what it is. So they shoot him full of whatever it is they shoot you full of to do a cat-scan and turns out he's allergic to it. To top it off, my mom was already in the emergency room because she didn't feel right.

My mom was fine, they still don't know whats wrong with my step dad.

Last night, my mom was in the emergency room again because she tried cutting her finger off. She is fine, just a few stiches and having to be creative when she wipes her ass.

And my mom's 51st birthday was thursday. My step-dad forgot. Drina, mom said that she would love for you to call her. She doesn't want a gift. If you need her phone number, email me missxomisery@aol.com.

So last night, the NYC group of podcasters thought it would be funny to play out a fight on Twitter. At first, I freaked out because Holly is out there alone and when I texted her and asked if she was ok, she didn't say i'm fine it was a joke, she led me to believe someone had been inappropriate with her. When the pictures started posting, I realized that this was supposed to be funny. i didn't think so. I still don't. I thought I had overreacted because I was already having an off day because I was tired, then my mom calls talking about cutting her finger off, and a few other matters going on. But after some discussion with a few people, they could understand why I was upset.

Wes, I am sorry I cancelled on you. I wouldn't have been very good company. I owe you, I really do.

I have been successful in not eating meat for about a month now. I have been cooking a whole lot more, which I love. What is weird is I thought I would be going crazy with meat craving. I really haven't. i have been sleeping a whole lot better and not so irritable. Besides this week stressing me out, I have been pretty good. Normally this amount of stress would result in migraines, but I don't even have a headache. I just need to keep up on the bike.

Today I made mushroom raviolli with a pea pesto puree thingy. It was so good! Tomorrow, depending on how adventurous I am feeling, I will make gnocchi with a sage butter sauce or tacos. hahaha! I will probably make the tacos because my avocados are ready. I made Avocado Brushcetta last week and Derek liked it enough that he said I should make it again. I have a recipie for a taco soup and I am thinking I will tweek it to make it vegetarian friendly that will be excellent with the Brushcetta.

Ok I am done babbling. I really need a good night's sleep because on top of everything else, I am being a girl this week! Hurrah!

I love this so hard

This was made by a listener of the WMBYS! Tim in AK is my new husband, he just doesn't know it yet.

Podcasting junk and stuff

I know that many of my readers are listeners of WMBYS. Well I made some appearances on other shows this week that you should go check out.

I was on episode 69 of my boyfriend's podcast, Pod is My Co-Pilot. They share a gross story of a "friend" of theirs. very funny!

Not to long ago I did an interview with Tom from the Ramble Redhead show. I know a lot of us tease Tom about shameless promotion, but I really believe his show does some good and I have learned a lot from it. He posted our show this morning. If you want to take a listen you can by going to his web site or through iTunes.

A Dedication to my Father

The only purpose of the video is so you can hear the song if you want to. This song grabbed my heart today...Someday, I will elaborate on my father...not right now though

There's a saltwater film on the jar of your ashes
I threw them to sea, but a gust blew them backwards
And the sting in my eyes that you then inflicted
Was par for the course just as when you were living

It's no stretch to say you were not quite a father
But a donor of seeds to a poor single mother
That would raise us alone, we never saw the money
That went down your throat through the hole in your belly

Thirteen years old in the suburbs of Denver
Standing in line for Thanksgiving dinner
At the Catholic church; the servers wore crosses
To shield from the sufferance plaguing the others
Styrofoam plates, cafeteria tables
Charity reeks of cheap wine and pity
And I'm thinking of you, I do every year
When we count all our blessings
And wonder what we're doing here

You're a disgrace to the concept of family
The priest won't divulge that fact in his homily
And I'll stand up and scream if the mourning remain quiet
You can deck out a lie in a suit but I won't buy it
I won't join in the procession that's speaking their peace
Using five dollar words while praising his integrity
And just because he's gone, it doesn't change the fact:
He was a bastard in life, thus a bastard in death

Up too early

So Derek finally comes to bed at 2:45am. He tosses and turns to get comfortable, three minutes later gets up to go to the bathroom and tosses and turns again. This goes on for the next 15 minutes because Derek is mental! He has some deep seeded fear that he will piss himself while he sleeps or something. And this isn't the first time his up and down for 20 minutes has kept me awake. So I have been awake since 2:45am. (which is a good Elliott Smith song)

Anyways. I did get somethings done this morning. I purchased some birthday pressies for Dad. Read up on all the blogs I have let slip over the week, updated the iTunes, and started to listen to the 30 plus podcasts that have built up since Wednesday.

I have a new obsession. I have always been intrigued by Mediums and ghost hunting and junk. There are two shows I LOVE on the A&E's. The First one is Paranormal State and the second is Psychic Kids. The common thread on these two shows is Chip Coffey. Something about him is interesting and certainly entertaining. And he looks a little like Big Fatty, which I am listening to out of order, I just realized.



WMBYS' 50th show is going to be recorded on Tuesday. i think that is so exciting. I also get to be a guest on PIMC's 69th episode with my boyfriend Taylor, Taffy, Rodan, Tom, and someone else. So that will be fun.

Can you tell that I am just talking to take up time? I wonder what time Starbucks opens on Sundays. I will for sure need it.

Did I mention that I love Eddie Izzard?

One of my husbands

So tonight I got to see my husband Eddie Izzard. This is the tail end of his Stripped tour when he is going back to his blokey roots. He was so fantastic and so funny. And he looked amazing. Even though he wasn't in girl garb, he still wore the eyeliner and frankly makes Nessie a happy girl.

After the show we met my pals April and Doug out front and were just chatting and something told me to look in the lobby of the theater. There was Eddie doing a little impromptu Q & A! I was like 5 feet away from him. And he is striking in person. April has pictures, so once I get them, I will post.

Man oh man. I want to jump on him and wiggle!