Sunday, August 31, 2008

What a week

I have had an interesting week. I am still reeling over WMBYS. I go from being angry, to sad, to frustrated, to whatever. It is hard to put a lot of yourself into a project and then be told you can't do it anymore. I am so appreciative of the emails, phone calls, comments I have received. At first, I really thought that I could be ostracized from the community I love so much, but I was so wrong. I have never been so happy about being wrong. And yes I am very sad things happened how they did. But you know, I have learned that I let my emotions get the best of me sometimes and that's ok. I would rather be emotional then a cold person with no feelings you know? I will probably still be sad about WMBYS for awhile, but I am ready to move on. I don't want to be surrounded with negative feelings or thoughts when the whole experience was the complete opposite for me. I had a very good time doing it and i have met some fucking awesome people through it. That can never be bad. I may venture out on my own, but I am taking a break for now. Not sure what I want to do.

Moving on...

From what I gather from my mom's cryptic description, my stepdad has some weird growth on his stomach. They are gauging his symptoms and it could be nothing or something more severe. My stepdad takes crap care of himself, so I am hoping it's just him being fat. We'll see. No news is good news.

My mom's hand looks so gross. The whole top of her finger that she cut off is black and bleck. She's ok for the most part, but she can skip the ER this week.

I thought my air conditioner broke this morning and I was scured! September is the hottest part of summer for the East County and I was not having that. Derek fixed it because he knew what was good for him. I am a grouchy bitch when I am hot.

I have been doing great with the vegetarian diet this week. I am an emotional eater, so i was concerned I would be like, fuck it I don't care. But I stayed on track and I feel so good about it.

Ok I am off to play Sims. I know i'm a dork!

6 comments:

Listener12b said...

OMG! I haven't been to your blog in like a week. I just got an email from Holly saying you will no longer be on the show. I heard about the thing in twitter but i didn't think it would be so bad! Waaa! I'm really going to miss you. Are you out of the podcasts for a while or will you be joining another? This is listener 12b just in case.

Nessa said...

Hi darling, yea, sometimes things don't work out. I don't know what I will be doing as far as podcasting goes. I will more than likely be blogging for awhile until the drama clears. If i do do anything, I will post it on the blog :)

Lauren said...

Congrats on the vegetarian thing (= As far as what I think of the whole dramz...I'd love it if you'd email me. laurenisme8@yahoo.com

Wes said...

Glad to hear you are sticking to your diet. Going through emotional times are enough to drive you to eat poorly, but if you can do it, then you can make it to your goal.

Candy said...

Hey Babe, glad to have heard you the other day on Tim's show. It's wonderful to know you're staying in the mix. Would hate to miss your laughs/giggles. How could we not love you?!!

NateJ said...

Hi nessa,

Never listened to WMBYS, but I've seen your posts on The Daily Purge and elsewhere. Just a note to say that i'm sorry that things didn't work out. Keep your chin up, girl. You've handled this situation with class. Unlike other underwhelming podcasters who get their panties in a wad thinking someone stole her bit. Sorry for the cattiness. But come on...

Now you're a little like Scott. And they can find a Rob Lindley...someone shrill that their listeners will hate. Who could hate Rob lindley though? Doesn't make sense to me.

Keep it real, girlie...