Saturday, November 3, 2007

Ramble Ramble Ramble

I have found that the steam I had when I first started this blog is dwindling. but I think it's quality not quantity. riiiight!


For those who have asked about my sister...Thank you and I am sorry I haven't gotten back to any of you regarding it. My sister is fine. Apparently she has not been eating. her excuse is that she doesn't have any money. Well, I don't have anything mature to say to that. I am angry at her for lieing to me about it. I specifically asked her if she had been eating and she said she had. My sister makes extremely poor decisions when it comes to her money. I had been helping her for almost two years. It got to be too much. She also would rather get stoned and wallow in her misery than go grocery shopping. She is 25 years old. She is at the point where she needs to sink or swim. I can't help her anymore. So yes, she is fine from her stint in the ER, everything else, not so much.

Back when I began the love of my life posts, I had talked about David. I actually found him on the myspace. He is married with three children. His wife is very pretty. I sent him a message, not really expecting to hear anything back. He actually did write me back and we have traded a few emails. I'm happy that he has grown up. He seems to be doing well. I'm happy for him.

This whole week of fires, ER visits, and just normal life has taken it's toll on me. I went home a few hours early on Friday because I began crying and couldn't stop. I think i needed to have a good cry and some rest. My sleep pattern has been all out of whack, I haven't been eating as well as I should. I haven't gone back to my awful ways, but i haven't been drinking as much water. I still have been exercising 5 days a week, but I really think the added stress and lack of good food has altered my mood greatly. I really need to get back on track.

Have any of you seen the preview for August Rush? It looks like a make Nessa cry movie. I haven't really heard anything else about it.

ok, I am off to do something else....Like take a nap haha!


Walt said...

I'm glad your sister is doing okay, crappy life choices aside. Doesn't it suck having to be the mature and responsible one? I want to be the fuck up sometimes.

I also know what you mean about needing a good cry. I feel like I'm verging on that territory. While nothing terribly wrong has happened to me, all these tiny little disappointments have been building up and I'm not happy about it. I'm starting to feel beaten down about stuff and that's not a good place to be in. I'm hoping a really good night of sleep and a good walk tomorrow morning will help.

Malchera said...

Sorry to hear about sister. Its been one hell of a week for you. Take care, hug maggie. Your friends are thinking of you